Burnt Out

Today is the first day that I've been home before dark without any midterms to study for, TASA event to go to, or any other obligations! It feels so nice just to be at home to clean, do laundry, and work on some easy homework.

Yesterday was so stressful! :( I went to Geisle five times in 2 hours in attempts to get the book I needed for my midterm today. I also realized I needed 2 letters of recommendation by this Friday for an application I don't think I will be able to actually complete because I put it off way too late. Sometimes I'm so busy with other things I forget about things that I want to do for myself. But thanks to some chocolate Teddy grams and good company I felt much better by the end of the day. I was still way screwed for my midterm, but thanks to an amazing roommate and a pretty handleable midterm I'm feeling a little like this right now:


So I'm taking this Film Studies class and it's really interesting. I really like the professor and I actually participate in class discussions! He calls on people sometimes and it's so startling to have to think of something intelligent to say on the spot. The films we watch are all about relationships so we just finished Closer and now we're watching Eyes Wide Shut. I've actually never seen either movie so I think I may go rent them tonight.

Anyways this past Monday our professor briefly touched upon the subject about lying to protect others. And then he said that it can be argued that people only lie to the people they love. At first I agreed, but the more I think about it the less I agree. When you lie to somebody you're taking the truth away from them and controlling them with your own distorted version. You're patronizing them and will only hurt them more in the long run. If you really love somebody, you shouldn't even have the need to lie to them in the first place.

Because Facebook is too Public

At least here I can pretend like nobody really reads this.

Talking in Bathrooms is Awkward

I think it's really awkward when people talk to people while they are peeing. I don't know when I went from one of those girls who had to go to the bathroom with their friends to somebody who will purposely try to go to the bathroom when nobody else is there. Mel and I even used to be bathroom buddies! So strange.


Another weird thing about me is that I sort of really like knowing what to expect. Don't get me wrong, I love surprises and spontaneity, but I think what I really mean is that once I get my heart set on something I expect it to happen. For example, when I was younger my mom used to call home to see what we wanted to eat. If she suggested Japanese, but brought home something else I would get really upset and disappointed. And it's not even because I LOVE Japanese food, but it's because I start to prepare myself for Japanese food so I get annoyed when it turns out not to be. Ugh, maybe it's because I like to get my way. I should work on being more flexible.

I also need to work on not putting all my eggs in one basket. Lately I've been forgetting that I'm still young and that things shouldn't be taken too seriously.

I can't wait to pass on the torch. I'm done with being the bad guy.

Oh yeah, I was also freaking stupid and didn't buy tickets for Fusion early enough even though I have been planning on going since last quarter. Lame.

Student Health Services

I feel like I go to this place more often then I go to the library. Now I don't know if that means I don't study enough, or if I'm just really sick. Well, I think if I exclude studying for finals, the first sentence is pretty true. :(

These past two weeks have been such a crazy blur of fun, travel, friends, and family.


New York was so much fun. I loved the fact that there was something to do all the time and that it was very easy to get around. We did everything from watching the Julliard Dance Show and exploring the MoMA to eating at famous places like Serendipity and Tao to buzzing on the subway from the yang le duo drinks the Alabama men bought us. Although there were some tense moments, the 5 am conversations and card playing made it all totally worth it. Plus, it's not a choir trip unless some grumpiness happens.

Because we couldn't book free tickets on Sunday, I missed the first day of Spring Quarter. It sucks because as of today (it's only week 2) I've used up all my allowed absences in my three classes where attendance is required. I guess part of my excuse is that I haven't been feeling well, but today's absence was definitely not because of that reason. Oh how I miss the weekends where I was able to sleep in until 3pm and wake up just in time for an early dinner at Dumpling Inn.


The two days after I got back from NY were probably the longest and most stressful days of any other week 1 days during past quarters. I did get to see some beautiful ladies from home and I can't wait for her to come here for school. Even though I barely got to see them we had some good laughs at Roberto's and some fun moments in the bathroom at PB.

Then it was the invasion of the relatives. Hanging out with family is so different than hanging out with friends and I'm so used to hanging out with friends now. This weekend consisted of me having four parents and putting up with four opinionated adults and one whining six year old. But Christopher remembered me! He's pretty cute most of the time - just a really big attention whore. And I do love my family. I think I just need other cousins there too to buffer all the loving nagging.