Long Night

I have a soft spot for old people, especially old men. Today at Croutons I couldn't stop being amazed at this old man who worked there. He was so cute and hardworking, always cleaning a table or restocking the straws. Jojo got a little jealous that I kept paying attention to the old man instead of him. I really wanted to start a conversation with him and have him tell me stories about his past, his family, why he was working. I hoped he wasn't working because the love of his life had passed away and now he couldn't stand staying at home without her. I decided right then and there that once I get out of school and start working and stuff I want to dedicate one weekend morning to visiting an old people's home. Because I didn't know how to compliment him without insulting him, I gave him my biggest smile in hopes to brighten his day when I asked for a lid for my salad.

me: ugh, i'm sooo screwed for my final tomorrow
jojo: yeah, i'm going to stay up all night
jeanette: don't you guys have all day tomorrow?
me: uhhhh, it's at 8 tomorrow
jeneatte: pm?
jojo: am!!!
jeanette: oh! well..... GOOD LUCK GUYS!

For some reason, I don't feel like putting in any effort for my Chinese final tomorrow. Chinese has been pretty hard this quarter, and even though I thought it was going to be an easy A, I know I won't be getting that. I wish I took it pass/no pass, but I thought I was going to minor it in so I didn't.

Finals week marks another ending to a quarter. Spring quarter finals marks another ending to a year. I feel that every year in college is jam packed with eating, drinking, laughing, changes, growth. I guess I am having mixed feelings about the end of this year. I'm relieved that my third year is over, but I don't want for the good times to end. I'm excited for my summer plans, but half of me wishes I was just staying in SD to work and chill. I'm looking forward to new experiences next year, but uncertain about how things will turn out.

Why is it that relationships are sometimes so shallow in college? People are going off in their separate directions and no matter how much I say it, I don't truely believe we will be as close as we once were. I dunno, maybe it's my own fault for not making the effort.

我明天要考中文課的大考, 還沒有開始被沈子.
我不知道要怎麼辦.
為什麼我們要怎樣?

So conflicting.